my god. what is up. another awful day with wiley. today it included biting, hitting, kicking, and stepping on my hair. luckily it was all aimed at me, not archer. but i lost it nonetheless, yelling in anger so loudly it made archer cry/scared. that's bad, bad, bad of me, I know, I feel awful about it. i know what it was, wiley was tired, he was nodding out in the car on the ride home from preschool, but never quite made it to sleep. i tried putting him down for a nap, but that only escalated his behavior and my anger. i even tried putting them both back in the car and driving around to get wiley to fall asleep--something i've never done, and it didn't work. so i let him watch tv and i jogged around our driveway to cool off/get some space while archer napped.
i hate when i get into this pattern with wiley. even he said, 'it's a crazy day' I asked why and he said 'because i've hit and bited you.' so it must feel yucky to him, too. I think maybe with york out of town he isn't getting enough individual attention. so that's my goal tomorrow to sit with him alone for a few minutes...somehow.